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before you ask how im feeling,
im feeling;; still feeling kind of sickkk. D: but good!!

im currently;; iffy

whos on my mind;; mohamed D:
whether you know him or not
what i think about him;; ohmygosh i haven't talked to him in foreverrrrrr. i have to take pictures of bear for him! ><!!

whats wrong in my boring life;; my kneeeeee. but i'm still wickedddd. :'D wooh!

what im listening to;; queen bee - tina guo

i can be found captured most un-photogenically;; x.o.x.o.

O O K A M I

--we can push out, break out, die out--

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you all know me as O O K A M I
other names ive been known as are
V I S I O N F E A T H E R, V I S I - C H A N, D A R K I E, O O K Y, D, G A N G S T A D and some others
i joined june 19 2007 at 9:24pm, almost three years ago
my first character's name was V I S I O N P A W
my favorite character's names are V I S I O N F E A T H E R and L O V E L E S S
my favorite [current] character is V I S I O N F E A T H E R

my real name is E C H O S C H I A
most people know me as O O K A M I and D A R K I E
i am mostly N A T I V E A M E R I C A N, but i like C H E R O K E E
my hobbies are
W R I T I N G, R E A D I N G, D R A W I N G, P H O T O G R A P H Y, and R O L E P L A Y I N G
im not very good at any of them
im very anti-social and shy in R E A L L I F E
though on here im usually hyper, loud, and annoying
im a P S Y C H O P A T H and a C R A Z Y C A T L A D Y
and my life-long enemies are L I G H T N I N G F I R E and B R A M B L E Z
just kidding

i can be moody, rude, and self-pitying
you just have to kinda deal with me when im like that
i dont like people who want to change me
im over-dramatic and take everything way too seriously
i am the queen of self criticism

i have dyed turquoise/black hair and green/blue [heterochromatic] eyes
my favorite colors are black, pink, purple, yellow, orange, army green, and rainbow too
my least are nonexistent
i like pretty things, especially sparkly/shiny pretty things
i like things that are fluffy and soft, like bunnies and kitties
i dont really like meat anymore, it makes me sick. sob
i love scary movies, horror books, and blood and gore
people think im insane
i write short stories, poems and songs
and am T R Y I N G to write a book
i love music, my favorite bands are
A T R E Y U, M A X I M U M T H E H O R M O N E, G R E E N D A Y
i also like megan mccauley, gretchen wilson, emilie autumn
my birthday is november eighteenth 1994

A N O T E
--a little fact about ookami--

the name ookami was actually
not inspired by the awesome game okami
it is in loving memory of my wolf
Ookami [Rooster]
who disappeared autumn 02
while we were out of town
he was our first pet that was really M I N E
and the beginning of my love for canidae
he was a good pet and a great friend while he was with us
and i will always miss him
<3

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V I S I O N F E A T H E R --dont they realize im a porcelain doll-- my name is visionfeather. my age is six years and ten months. im not a kitten anymore; not a kit, not a 'little one', or anything else; im an adult, thank you. my gender is female. if you so much as thought i was male, i advise you to watch your ass, and see a therapist. my breed is oriental. what the hell did you think it was? i am currently in thunderclan P e r s o n a l i t y if you haven't already guessed; visionfeather is very sarcastic, very easily annoyed, and very offensive to others. towards strangers, she is cold, cruel, and sometimes violent. she especially hates cats who think theyre better than everyone else, and who sneer at others, thinking that nobody would dare defy them. she also dislikes cats who think everything is bright, colorful, and joyous. perky and optimistic cats drive her crazy with their fast tongues and immunity to sarcasm. cats like herself; cold, rather laid back, downcast and thinking the world is a hell made just to torment them, well, she hasn't really decided just what she thinks of those cats. others who see life like her rather unnerve her, because she looses her sense of mystery, the feeling that she can say whatever she wants and nobody will understand her anyways. with her friends, shes rather picky. if youre one of her trusted few, shell tell you everything about her, but if you so much as whisper something behind her back, she can turn on you with such a fierce hatred its staggering. if she really trusts you, she depends on you to help her with her life problems, and constantly asks for you to reassure her that she really isn't a total freak. she can have her good days; where shes less sarcastic and cold, though nowhere near jumpy and enthusiastic. D e s c r i p t i o n shes a very beautiful cat. looking like a fullblood oriental, only larger, her fur is thick and warm, but soft to the touch. her undercoat is white, and she has a very light gray top coat, that varies in shades and tones, and is darkest towards her back. this is swirled with thick black spirals all the way down her body. her build is tall, slim, thin, and muscular. her muzzle is long and pointed; her ears tall and erect, facing slightly sideways. her eyes are black, but appear bluish-violet in certain light, giving her a sad yet mysterious look. when first seeing her, many get the impression of despair and loss, or a delicate fem who can break at the touch. well, shes not really lost in despair, though she sounds so at times, and if you call her fragile or delicate, ha, i hope you can run fast. she also happens to be quite agile and fit; like most well-taken care of cats. in short: her appearance can be quite misleading, as it leads no hint to her sarcastic and violent nature. many cats have learned this the hard way. N e w s visionfeather is in 2 current threads. How could we ever forget? let me see you raise your hand;; visionfeather has 0 current plots. visionfeather has formed 2 friendships Lynxpelt Rubypaw visionfeather has made 2 enemies Lostface Silverpaw visionfeather has mothered 0 kits visionfeather has mentored 1 apprentice Bluepaw reminders/to-do list// -xxx- memory lane// year two// ... T h o u g h t s 5/11/08 ohmif**kingawd. i am going to rip out that little skanks heart. it seems my previous thought were right. lostface doesnt give a nuts about me. hes ran off with that girl, the dirty little girl, hes just a f**king man-sleeper in my eyes. imma claw out his eyes so he cant look at his little wenchs perfect body anymore. hah! well see how he likes that. im not sad anymore, ive realized lost never cared about me. ive turned all my sadness into hatred; hatred gets you so much farther in life. like battle drums, forcing you to march on. march on, f**kers! march on! d**n him to hell. never shall i fall in love. love is for weaklings, cats that cant handle themselves without having someone to lean on. well, visionfeathers not a weakling anymore! i shant love anymore. love only hurts you in the long run, eh? 11/17/07 lostface? whats he talking about? of course i remember! why shouldnt i? oh wait... he must be worried because of my condition. but... why should he be worried about me? hell, im not even sure if he loves me anymore. oh well. time shall show me the answers, right? 11/05/07 what the hell?! whats going on? since when did I qualify for an apprentice? im hardly suitable as a warrior, let alone a mentor! danm, what was sandstar thinking? well, i suppose theres nothing i can do about it now. the damage has been done, and theres no turning back now. ill just have to show this kit whos boss. hell be the greatest warrior ever! sandstar... ill make this kit the greatest youve ever seen.

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L o v e l e s s --i feel it welling up inside-- my name is loveless. say it and hear the anger. my age is seven years. live that long in pain and suffering and you'll understand. my gender is male. my breed is mixed. lick my blood off the bedroom floor and taste it. i belong to thunderclan. P e r s o n a l i t y cold, calm, cruel. but thats only on the outside. on the inside its chaos: constant boiling anger, aching pain, sometimes a numbness of sorts. he feels such a complete despair, as if his life is trapped on a small island, and any direction he turns hell plunge into icy waters. he has tried to place walls around himself; though sometimes things like his anger and sadness bleed through. others have an instict to steer clear of his passionate hate and depression. and it can scare others, seeing all that in his eyes, and watching his cold, cruel, calm manner. he murders whenshe has to, though doesnt take joy from it. sometimes he shows no emotion at all, and other times hes so distraught with feelings he seems on the verge of exploding. hes sinking into a darkness where none can follow, and things can only get worse. D e s c r i p t i o n he has the perfect figure; tall, lean, powerful; a sharp, pointed muzzle, thin and strong legs. his one great difference is his coloring and his eyes; his coat is a pure black, splotched sloppily with red. and his eyes are a dark violet that appear to have a slight reddish tint. hes made perfectly for melting into the darkness. he frightens people and cats alike: two gleaming eyes staring out of the darkness, a slight gleam to her nose, the rest of his body seemingly invisible. he carries herself with authority, and has a naturally dominant nature. his one small weakness is cats that make fun of coat coloring; he can get angry, and very often kill them. when one mentions his coat, even with awe, it brings back memories that can drive him, quite literally, mad. N e w s loveless is in 1 current thread. [privvy for loveless] loveless has 1 current plots. -snowstorm- loveless has formed 1 friendship snowstorm loveless has made 0 enemies loveless has fathered 0 kits reminders/to-do list// finish thread #1 memory lane// year two// ... T h o u g h t s 11/10/07 how cute. snowstorm has a crush on me. i wonder how long that will last? eh, shell probably just end up toying with me and then breaking my heart. how sweet. i suppose it would be best to just ignore her. but... what are these ticklish feelings in my gut when im around her? could i possibly... no, no way. i cant love anybody. thats just... no way. unless... shes for real?

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I n a c t i v e D r a g o n ' s H a l o --lets dance, lets play-- my name is dragons halo. momma says it aint nice to make fun of othas names, so dont. my age is one year and three months. im a big girl now! my gender is female. haha, did you think i was a boooyyyoooo? i am calico. aint that nice? i am a kittypet, and proud of --omg! a leaf! P e r s o n a l i t y dragon is very "special". she has ADHD, or the feline equivalent of ADHD; she cant hold still, and when she tries she tends to have a very noticable twitch. her mind is a bit slow sometimes, but her body being slow if a fools dream. shes always in motion; even in her sleep she twitches, rolls, kicks, and on occasion sleepwalks. shes very friendly, and aggression is not a term she fully understands. she often annoys older cats, and is very hurt when they snarl or snap at her. shes quite psychotic sometimes; she can have slight delusions or hallucinations, and her version of reality is very different from the average cat. though she is mostly happy, she can have her times when shes absolutely desolate. she dislikes being alone, and will often follow a cat around for days before they can chase her off. shes usually chattering about everything, incessantly, and having her around can often set some dogs nerves to rest, while for others, as ive said, it does the exact opposite. D e s c r i p t i o n she is, in her own way, handsome. her coat is always sleek and soft, and with her almost foxlike appearance she can be quite cute. she has brown eyes, and her fur is a mix of black, brown, and a bit of orange and cream. shes fairly thin, and her coat is short, aside from her tail, that has a very distinct fox look. she has a bit of a lynx's look, and you can also distinguish the faint resemblance to a fox, as ive said. her fur is shaded darker towards the top, fading down to light at her stomach. she looks like the definition of her breed, though she isn't fully purebred. N e w s dragon is in 0 current threads. dragon has 0 current plots. dragon has formed 1 friendship Gusgus dragon has made 0 enemies dragon has mothered 0 kits reminders/to-do list// none. memory lane// year two// ... T h o u g h t s -none- dragon hasnt been thinking much lately.

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C R Y S T A L B R E A T H --this night will see your darkest fears-- my name is crystalbreath. my age is seven years. my gender is female. my breed is rosina wachtmeister. my loyalty belongs to thunderclan P e r s o n a l i t y quiet and reserved. shes learned lots in the past three years, and understands things that younger dogs dont. she doesnt brag about her knowledge, and is no longer hotheaded, hyper, or violent. shes learned to improvise for everything; throw her a problem, instead of drowning in it, she build a boat and float it, no matter how long that takes. shes patient and calm, with a slightly mysterious aura. however, some things havent changed. shes still ambitious about some things, and full of hopes and anticipations, though she doesnt flaunt them about as bravely anymore. shes become rather cautious with cats, but once she trusts you, shes a sweet thing, really. though her guilt and worry about all thats happened in her past sometimes gets to her, shes happy. happy to be home. she could be considered quite an odd fem. she can be quite obsessive of things, including shiny things, birds, and dead animals. shes not stupid, not by a long shot. in fact, her mind is quite sharp, above average. another odd trait she developed was her extreme disliking of the sun. crystalbreath flat out refuses to go out into the light of day, but instead treading out after the sun sets. at night, everything is her playground. she is free to do what she wants, where she wants as long as she feels she can find a place to hide. D e s c r i p t i o n her base fur color is a pure black. her face is split into two, the right half being the same black and the left half being a rusty orange, contrasting against eachother. the difference is sudden, often stunning many and causing stares. her paws are the same, half is black, half is orange. this transition continues down her body, finally fading out into a fine strip in the center of her tail. her build is large, though she is feminine looking. shes large as ever; 17" at the shoulder, towering over even the larger breeds. her paws are still large, round, and sturdy, though quite worn from serving her all these years. her eyes, once a stunning shade of brilliant green, are now misty and dull; her eyesight has slowly diminished over the past years. shes not completely blind, but her vision is foggy and unclear, especially in harsh lighting. shes found ways around her near-blindness however, and doesnt notice it all that much these days. her legs, strong and sturdy and tall; a trait possibly given to her from her rosina wachtmeister ancestors; are still in fair shape, but her left hind leg, damaged long ago in one of her bloodthirsty fights, has become stiff, often twitching or jerking without warning. shes also found ways around this; moving her legs in a different way while walking or running, and not depending on the stubborn leg for as much. she still maintains a weight almost unbelievable with her size [roughly 12 pounds], and despite it all, shes full of grace when she moves. her ears, staying as they always have, one erect and one down, usually in her face, havent changed, and still give off her happy-go-lucky look, thats challenged by her scarred body hidden under her amazing pelt. at night, bathed in starlight and moonshine, she looks more beautiful than ever, only far more sad. an apparition of sorrow, pleaing for forgiveness. indeed; some may mistake her for a ghost on a dark night. singing songs from long ago, her eyes looking distant and foggy, she casts a very strange and mysterious air. N e w s crystalbreath is in 0 current threads. crystalbreath has 0 current plots. crystalbreath has formed few friendships, but none are still kept crystalbreath has made many enemies, but none of them are around anymore crystalbreath has mothered 5 kits, but theyre all gone now reminders/to-do list// none. memory lane// year two// a. T h o u g h t s -date- crystalbreath hasnt been thinking much lately.

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H A R V E S T P E L T --im alive-- my name is harvestpelt. my age is ten years. my gender is female. my breed is common tabby. my faith belongs to bloodclan P e r s o n a l i t y well, shes not to complicated...well, maybe she is. hes very anti-social; and is fine with that. she has an overactive imagination, and knows it. and she knows that talking about her wild mind with others only makes them thinks shes crazy; imagination is a sickness to her. she doesnt discourage her imagination though; she just holds it in until shes alone, then lets it have full reign. along with being very imaginative, shes also a bit sarcastic, and a pro at self-criticism. shes a bit...disapointed with the world, and herself. she doesnt see either of them clearly; her mind has always tried to hide it from her, and not just in a figurative sense either. she actually doesnt see things right; her version of the world is ugly and imperfect, and other dogs sometimes see this. they never mention it, which is just as well. she can be a bit snappy...and is paranoid about everything. shell try and write off everything as her imagination and lack of sleep, which is reasonable; she tends to not sleep well, for lots of reasons. one is the pain; she suffers from constant headaches, and a pain in her lower jaw. she also isnt a big fan of light, and theres just too much of it lately. she likes the dim, dull world that her mind tries to create. she isnt really happy in this world; but not unhappy either. shes just learned to live with everything. D e s c r i p t i o n she sees herself in a different way, like she sees everything. because of the war going on between her mind and her eyes, she thinks shes much uglier than she really is. her undercoat is a dull white... no, almost gray. over this is several other colors, mostly oranges, yellows, and some gold tint. she has a sharp muzzle and slightly rounded ears. her legs are long and thin, though shes quite small. her eyes are black, flecked messily with golden chips, but rather dull. so maybe shes not entirely beautiful; but shes good at heart, which is all that matters, really. N e w s harvestpelt is in 0 current threads. harvespelt has 0 current plots. harvestpelt has formed 0 friendships harvestpelt has made 0 enemies harvestpelt has mothered 2 kits, but only one remains, unknown to her. Visionfeather reminders/to-do list// none. memory lane// year three// ... T h o u g h t s -date- harvestpelt hasnt been thinking much lately.

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S K Y W A L K E R --im so sick, so infected-- my name is skywalker. i dont know who or what i am named after, and i dont care. my age is four years two months. not very long for you. my gender is male. though it doesnt matter, because ill never have kits of my own. my breed is mixed. why bother trying to count all the breeds in me, just spill my blood at find them yourself. P e r s o n a l i t y skywalker is different, to state the obvious. he was born with a disease that affects both his brain and his body, and he has only a few years to live. though hes a young cat, hes very mature. though the disease affects his brain, hes intelligent. his emotions are very developed, maybe too much, and can be unstable. he realizes his life is going to be unnaturally short, and wants to live for today, and not think about tomorow or yesterday. but dogs are shy of him, which is understandable. some dogs dont feel safe, because in a fit of rage his sharp teeth could easily leave deadly wounds. he hates himself in a way, being like this, he wants to be normal, wants to live forever. on the other hand, he just wants to die now, and screw the rest of his life. hes confused about everything, and cant understand why his life has to be so cruel. his life might be easier if he could meet someone who understood him, or someone who just would love him for his remaining days on earth, which are quickly slipping away. D e s c r i p t i o n though theres only a bit of oriental blood in him, he strongly resembles one. the only differences are his coat; which is a bit longer, thicker, and fluffier. and his shape; his head is a bit more round, his body slightly thinner and less heavyset. his legs are fairly short, but hes only a youngster yet. his ears are set slightly towards the back of his head, and are slightly limp. his markings are the everyday tabbys, but are a bit different colored, and have more of a yellow/orange look, rather than brown. his eyes are dark, almost black, and full of emotion. hes small, and when he hasnt eaten in awhile you can see the sickness that haunts him much more clearly, as it makes his eyes bulge slightly, his muscles tighten up, and his ears lay back. when hes well fed, he looks healthy enough, and sometimes feels that way; but as his time is running out, its starting to get worse every day. N e w s skywalker is in 1 current thread. I am so high, I can hear heaven... skywalker has 0 current plots. skywalker has formed 0 friendships skywalker has made 0 enemies skywalker has fathered 0 kits reminders/to-do list// none. memory lane// year one// a. T h o u g h t s 10/27/07 PAIN. PAIN. PAIN. so much pain; let it end soon. it hurts me. hurts so bad. pain, pain. oh god, why me!? do i deserve this!? what have i done? i cant take this. this pain; it hurts so bad. so terrible. the pain is like fire. it comes...then the ice of relief. but the pain will return. it always does. while i sit alone, more alone than anyone in this world, it will come again. please. i beg you. make it end. please. please. please. do you not care? please. i beg you. make it end. please. 11/01/07 it hurts, it hurts so bad. its hard to breathe, it hurts so terribly bad. my eyes burn, my heart racing, everything spins. but then it ends, and the world is still again. i feel angry and murderous one moment, but the next im sad and numb...i need to tell someone, but theres nobody to listen. i want mom, i want someone; someone to tell me im really going to be okay. i feel like theres a little clock in the back of my head, slowly ticking the time away...so little time. i know ill not live to see spring turn to summer again. i want to live my life now! but sometimes i feel so...strange. i want to die, i feel like ime falling apart, nothing left, only darkness, beautiful, seductive darkness...but i cant die. i have to live with what little time i have left! i have to...surely feeling pain is better than feeling nothing at all?